After we split up the connections still sucked. Did well in HC dom, but got raped terribly on a CTF on Crisis as the last map.
Stop prestiging buddy. It is an addiction and treat it as such. Mucho counseling, intervention, postive reinforcement, and the occasional "help me fellow clanners for I am weak and ready to fall of the wagon" will go along way in keeping you sane.
Just remember. The XP is not a solid, phyical, tangible thing that serves you any purpose in real life. If it is imarginary points prescribed by Treyarch then keep that in mind and allow them to pass.
Winicott. As a self appointed expert who is fascinated by the show "Hoarders" ask yourself if you aren't forming emotional attachments to useless junk and are unable to let go.
Ze doktor is in.